Katie's Wedding

So today was Katie's wedding. I was kind of looking forward and dreading it. It would be fun to see some people but the awkward conversations with those I don't know well, I don't like that stuff. Anyhow, I had my fabulous dress (size 14!!) and went with Mon & Dad. We got there and Stephanie (cousin from CO) is just arriving. Now Stephanie hasn't seen me in like 2 years and I highly doubt she's heard about the weighloss. She noticed immediately and commented, she actually commented a few times throughout the night. I have gotten better at the compliments. It's generally not a reflection that I didn't look good before (well I definitely didn't look like this!) but rather an encouragement for all my hard work. So a few people came up to me to comment on my weightloss (Uncle Bob's "who's that hot chick?" was sweet albeit a bit awkward). The worst was Katie's cousin from her other side of the family (totally wasted) telling me that I looked great considering I used to be heavy. She brought up a broken chair (faulty chair, I wasn't that big) that I would have liked to keep forgotten. When she repeated "no you used to be really heavy" it became offensive. Ahhh alcohol, you lose all filter.

One thing I do have to figure out is how to handle attention. For example, I used to not really have a waist so not very many people grabbed me around the middle. I feel like I've missed a critical step in developing, how do I handle the random drunk guys when they pay attention to me? I never had to deal with that before.... I haven't really changed, I still won't be flippant in dealing with guys (sometimes the Jewish law of no contact before marriage seems easier, it certainly gets rid of awkward/questionable situations). So this is something I'll have to deal with. It was fun to not constantly adjust my dress or cover my arms. Many things are so much less of a concern/issue for me now. I still have some fat spill at my elbow but overall my arms are toning up (and shrinking in size). Now I just have to make sure my appearance continues to be a minor aspect of my life. The important thing is WHO I am, a child of God.